You know those moments when you are awake at 1am and wonder what you doing with your life? Well... this brought me back to my thoughts on what I want... and in turn got me thinking about what I am thankful for. And boy howdy if I don't get some of these things expressed I think I may pop!
And so... if you are feeling really bored and want to know how my heart and mind work here is my small list of things I am thankful for.... of course not all inclusive *by any means*

* First and foremost for a wonderful husband who sets a great example for me. He often shows me who I would like to be. He is always quick to answer the call when anyone needs anything - regardless of how inconvienent or unavailable he really is. He loves to help others. It is in his very essense.
* For the chance to live my life without fear.
* For the gospel that reminds me that *yes* I am imperfect, but that as long as I repent try to do what little I am asked to do (which really bless me in the long run anyway!) and keep trying each time I fall, Jesus Christ CAN make up the difference if I let him. I will be the first to admit how short I fall on a daily basis of who I could/should/want to be... but what comfort to know I am a child of a loving, tender parent, of a God who listens to my woes and whines and likely smiles and thinks to himself, "just wait my child, it will all work out in the end".
* For the free apples my mom sent home and for the free tomatoes Jestin's sweet grandparents sent home... My pantry is being filled with yummy things!
* For the window cleaning mop thingy I bought almost a year ago and finally used today. I can't believe it! All the windows on our main level are clean... and it only took me the 20 minutes I had between being home from errands and picking up preschoolers! SWEET! A new favorite toy!
* My Camper... I went out to get a griddle today and the smell of it made my heart leap. I LOVE spending time with my family in there! Even if it is just for Family Home Evening games because the power went out! I feel so blessed!
* For my friends. I have some many friends on so many levels. Each one of you that read this blog are dear to me. I feel blessed to know I am not alone on this crazy journey of life.
* For my soft warm bed, and Jestin's warm feet to rub my cold ones on.
* For Maria's sister April. Words do not convey the joy and happiness her weekly stop in's mean to me.
* For my little Sophia. She is the best little dog. I love that she is a cuddler.
* For my little Sadie (aka Zoey) - she teaches me patience and long suffering! LOL And her playfulness is fun.
* For Caleb and his speech problems. I love hearing him say zuchinni (ateenee) and guacamole (a-ta-lo-lolly) He is so darn cute!

My heart just feels full. My gratitude runnest over...